Time.

I suck at managing my time.  I mean, when I am faced with several tasks, I'm an expert in maximizing my time and keeping on schedule, but I am talking the Big Picture.

I KNOW that I will have X number of tasks to do at work this week.  I know that I will spend Y number of hours trying to deal with my dog suffering from separation anxiety.  I know that I will have to spend Z hours working on roller derby back office stuff.

What I don't know is how to work in 4 new 30 second videos promoting the Nov 13 bout, 2 weekend in September announcing and one at DragonCon, and still getting my own items written and shot.

I have always considered myself a writer, but I've gotten side tracked into other things I love.  The few moments I steal to write are the happiest for me, but these days they are feeling more and more futile as I have less free time to finish anything!

Derby announcing makes me very happy.  If I could make a living on it, I'd never look back, but I can't, so I promote myself beyond my home league.  Second only to announcing for Little City I love announcing for the Blue Ridge Rollergirs in Asheville.  Not only do they have a great team, but I've gotten to know the players and support staff of that team and I think they are all spectacular people.  Hard Knox is another place I love to work.  Their announcers are funny and generously share the mic.  The URGE are always fun to announce for, their small bouts are intense and their arena is filled almost exclusively with derby folk.  Announcing is something I have a talent for.  I have a LONG way to go before I can consider myself good at it, but it makes me happy on a deep level and I need alot more of that.

But it takes time away from other things I need to do for myself.  Let's face it, I have high blood pressure and control my diabetes through diet: I do not have a good prognosis.  I have to make the most of every minute!  Unfortunately, I find myself mired down, separated from the freedom I've always needed in the past to get things done.  Not enough time, not enough freedom.

Anyhow...time to work on the Halloween Zombie Walk that I've always dreamed about.

Hehe.  Screw it.  There's always TIME for the things that make me happy.  Always.